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Pouring it Out in the Shower

I was standing in the shower (that’s always been a great place for me to connect with God) and I poured it all out to Him: my physical pain and fragile health, the pressure of deadlines and responsibilities, the schedule that felt heavier than what I could lift. I wasn’t ranting or even complaining. I was just going to my Father, honestly sharing and simply asking.

“I feel like I’m drowning—like I can’t accomplish it all! Father, I only want to do what You have for me. Show me anything I’ve taken on that’s not from You.

I need an answer. 

Lead me. I will let go of anything, stop doing anything, if I’ve taken on more than what You have for me . . . but at the same time I know You’ve called me to be fruitful and glorify You . . . show me how.

If I’m to tackle all that’s on my plate—I need Your wisdom and grace to do it!” 

I’m certainly not the first one to cry out this kind of prayer. One of my favorite chapters in Scripture is 2 Chronicles 20. The chapter opens with messengers telling the king of Judah the bad news: they were about to be surrounded by a multitude of enemies. Jehoshaphat was terrified and totally overwhelmed by the situation.

King Jehoshaphat had a ton more on his plate than what I was dealing with, but when you’re overwhelmed with all that’s surrounding you, and you can’t see how you can get it all done . . . you feel like a literal army of enemies is about to descend.

I love the king’s response. He doesn’t run, he doesn’t break down and have a pity-party, he was afraid, but he “set his face to seek the Lord.” Jehoshaphat begins that process by acknowledging God’s position of authority and right to rule:

“O LORD, God of our fathers, are you not God in heaven? You rule over all the kingdoms of the nations. In your hand are power and might, so that none is able to withstand you.” (2 Chronicles 20:6)

Then he builds a case for God to answer his prayer by reminding God of all the ways He’s shown up as a rescuer in the past. He sums up His appeal for help by adding:

“We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you.”  (2 Chronicles 20:12) 

If I want His help, if I want Him to work in my life, if I really want to live a life that’s following His agenda rather than my own—I must live out this confession . . . I don’t know what to do—but I’m keeping my eyes on You, because I’m not gonna move until You tell me to.

The day after I poured it all out to Him in the shower, He came through.

He gave me an early morning sunrise that reminded me of His faithfulness.

He had a friend call and offer to take some of my load—helping out in an area where she’s gifted. He showed me a way to organize a few things that gave me some relief from the pressure I was feeling. And He used His Word to confirm that I was walking in obedience to Him.

He reminded me that when He takes me beyond what I can accomplish on my own, it is called “walking by faith.” And walking by faith isn’t necessarily easy, but it’s walking with Jesus, and that’s just where I want to be.

I’m keeping my eyes on Him

What do you do when you’re totally overwhelmed with all that’s on your plate?

9 Comments

  • Cynthia

    “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV)

    God, I don’t understand why my husband is so angry, aggressive, not loving and unfaithful all of a sudden.Why, Lord?

    Have you ever asked God a question like that?

    Dear Lord, I praise You for being all-knowing. There is nothing that escapes Your eyes. Right now I’m facing some things that don’t make sense. And when I lean on my own understanding, I feel shaky. Help me to submit my questions to You, and trust that You have everything under control. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

  • Vivian Etherington

    I cry out to The Lord for grace! Every single day I feel this way because of the task before me of schooling my kids at home. Today is our first day back after a long break. The Lord has given me encouragement and ideas, changes to implement. I intend to stay more focused and be more scheduled. This is a real challenge for me, as you well know! I am finally following the counsel you gave me a couple of years ago– I am “going to my job” at 8:00! I am excited about a fresh start. I awoke at 5:15 to meet with the Lord–the most essential part of my day! That’s the earliest I have been up in a while!

  • Debbie S

    Thank you. The Lord knew that your post was exactly what I needed to read today!

    I said to my husband just this morning that I was hoping that we could keep the house cleaner. The situation is that I am recently home from 3 weeks in the hospital and the house is in chaos. Not that I’m that great of a housekeeper anyway, but now with my new diagnosis of cancer I’m overwhelmed with everything.

    I know the Lord is in control of all aspects of my life whether it be chemotherapy or a clean kitchen, but I need His wisdom to discern what “has to be done now” and who needs to do what.

    Thanks again for this lesson in waiting on Him! I’m so glad I subscribed to your blog.

  • Kimberly Wagner

    Dear Cynthia ~

    Such a good passage to implement when feeling overwhelmed and filled with fear and confusion. Great prayer as well, joining you in that. May you experience the confidence and peace that only comes from placing complete trust in Him.

  • Kimberly Wagner

    YAY! So glad to hear this report, Viv! May you keep pressing into Him for grace and walk in the steps He has ordered for you. I pray He gives you endurance, fresh vision for the next semester, and wisdom for time management.

    Blessings ~

  • Kimberly Wagner

    So thankful today’s post ministered to you, Debbie. I’m praying God surrounds you with “help” that He orchestrates. I also hope you have a church family that is helping you as you walk through this difficult time. Thank you for sharing.

    Blessings ~

  • Debbie S

    Yes,I am extremely thankful for the church family the Lord has placed us in. We are so loved and we know that we can ask our church family for anything we need.

  • Jen

    I have felt this way for the past few years. Going through fulltime school, fulltime work, fulltime mom and wife. Not to mention going through repairing a marriage that experienced infidelity and having health problems. I kept praying over the last couple of years, “God help me, I am drowning!” So your post hit me right at home. Thank you!! Thank you for reminding me to seek the Lord’s face. After hearing the sermon on “living abundantly.” I am reminded to praise Him through it all, I will admit it is hard for me to do sometimes. John 10:10 reminds me “The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.” A”rich and satisfying life,” this brings joy to my heart and tears to eyes. I ask that he lead my path and I will pray for yours.

  • Kimberly Wagner

    Hello Jen ~

    Yes, you certainly have had more than a full plate! Thank you for sharing and especially for your prayers. A “rich and satisfying life” . . . I agree, that promise brings joy (and tears!). How gracious of our Father to send His Son that we might experience fullness of joy and that comes from experiencing His presence (Psalm 16:11) . . . in the midst of the most hectic of schedules or through the deepest pain.

    Pausing to pray for you now ~