I was standing in the shower (that’s always been a great place for me to connect with God) and I poured it all out to Him: my physical pain and fragile health, the pressure of deadlines and responsibilities, the schedule that felt heavier than what I could lift. I wasn’t ranting or even complaining. I was just going to my Father, honestly sharing and simply asking.
“I feel like I’m drowning—like I can’t accomplish it all! Father, I only want to do what You have for me. Show me anything I’ve taken on that’s not from You.
I need an answer.
Lead me. I will let go of anything, stop doing anything, if I’ve taken on more than what You have for me . . . but at the same time I know You’ve called me to be fruitful and glorify You . . . show me how.
If I’m to tackle all that’s on my plate—I need Your wisdom and grace to do it!”
I’m certainly not the first one to cry out this kind of prayer. One of my favorite chapters in Scripture is 2 Chronicles 20. The chapter opens with messengers telling the king of Judah the bad news: they were about to be surrounded by a multitude of enemies. Jehoshaphat was terrified and totally overwhelmed by the situation.
King Jehoshaphat had a ton more on his plate than what I was dealing with, but when you’re overwhelmed with all that’s surrounding you, and you can’t see how you can get it all done . . . you feel like a literal army of enemies is about to descend.
I love the king’s response. He doesn’t run, he doesn’t break down and have a pity-party, he was afraid, but he “set his face to seek the Lord.” Jehoshaphat begins that process by acknowledging God’s position of authority and right to rule:
“O LORD, God of our fathers, are you not God in heaven? You rule over all the kingdoms of the nations. In your hand are power and might, so that none is able to withstand you.” (2 Chronicles 20:6)
Then he builds a case for God to answer his prayer by reminding God of all the ways He’s shown up as a rescuer in the past. He sums up His appeal for help by adding:
“We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you.” (2 Chronicles 20:12)
If I want His help, if I want Him to work in my life, if I really want to live a life that’s following His agenda rather than my own—I must live out this confession . . . I don’t know what to do—but I’m keeping my eyes on You, because I’m not gonna move until You tell me to.
The day after I poured it all out to Him in the shower, He came through.
He gave me an early morning sunrise that reminded me of His faithfulness.
He had a friend call and offer to take some of my load—helping out in an area where she’s gifted. He showed me a way to organize a few things that gave me some relief from the pressure I was feeling. And He used His Word to confirm that I was walking in obedience to Him.
He reminded me that when He takes me beyond what I can accomplish on my own, it is called “walking by faith.” And walking by faith isn’t necessarily easy, but it’s walking with Jesus, and that’s just where I want to be.
What do you do when you’re totally overwhelmed with all that’s on your plate?