Making the Most of Every Moment

I debated whether to even publish Friday’s post, because I don’t want to call attention to myself or be “melodramatic” or sensationalize something that might turn out to be a blip on the screen. I filled my journal with those thoughts the same day I received the call. Writing is my way of processing. I pray and write, think and write, and so many times receive greater understanding as I write.

So, I wrote the post, but struggled with whether to put it out here for everyone to see.

When I told my daughter about it, she encouraged me to post it, saying a lot of women get that same phone call and it could be helpful for them to hear my heart on how to respond when faced with news like that. I hope she’s right; I hope it might help someone.

So I posted the blog. On Friday I went to have more scans . . . if you’ve been there, you know the drill . . . lots of uncomfortableness going on . . . mainly because of the little non-gown thingy you have to wear and the . . . umm . . . PRESSURE from the procedure. That’s all I’m going to say about that.

In the Father’s good providence (which we should never be surprised when He does things like this, it is so like Him), He already had one of my closest friends scheduled to work in the Women’s Center that day. She doesn’t normally work on Fridays, but was filling in for a coworker (Note: There are no accidents with God.). It was such a joy to sit and visit with her as we waited for the doctor’s assessment. She was with me through the whole thing and I knew she was praying.

It was so encouraging to go online, pull up this website, and see how many of you dear friends posted sweet words. Thank you so much for your prayers and taking the time to write me a precious note. That means so much to me to know you are praying!

As things stand now, as soon as I return from the first portion of the Revive Tour, the doctor will do a biopsy. Nothing at this point is conclusive, except this:

[box]“As for me, I know that my Redeemer lives, and at the last He will take His stand on the earth.” (Job 19:25)[/box] 

He is keeping me in perfect peace. There is nothing to fear when I know He holds my future. I have confidence that His plans are good. Trusting in a good and sovereign Redeemer fills me with perfect peace.

My tweet on Saturday came from that morning’s reading in my Spurgeon devotional, and was so appropriate for the day:

“If the God of peace be with us, we shall enjoy the peace of God which passeth all understanding, even though outward circumstances should threaten to disturb.”

The message I hope you’ll receive from this post is twofold. First, that we can rest in His good and sovereign plans, but secondly, while resting—we need to live with urgency:

We don’t know how many moments remain to accomplish His purposes here on earth. We have a limited number of opportunities to impact our world for Christ . . . our life is fleeting . . . time is quickly passing.

Evaluate how you are filling the moments He has given you.

[box]Just as a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear Him. For He Himself knows our frame; He is mindful that we are but dust.

As for man, his days are like grass; as a flower of the field, so he flourishes. When the wind has passed over it, it is no more, and its place acknowledges it no longer. (Psalm 103:13–16)[/box]

We have this short life-time, these few years, filled with moments to be spent. How are you filling those moments? How are you spending your time?

Are you making the most of every opportunity to live out truth before others? Are you filling the earth with God’s glory?

[box]Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away. (James 4:14)[/box]

Are you living as a Beautifully Fierce Woman, softened by God’s grace and empowered by His Spirit, serving as a warrior in this battlefield called life?

I am at peace that God will give me breath for as long as He has me here . . . but my desire is that no moment be wasted, that my life will be poured out as an offering to Him and be used as a light shining in the darkness.

How are you spending the few moments you have remaining?


  • Debbie S

    What a powerful post! I heartily agree with your daughter about needing to share your journey with us. From the short time I have been following your blog I am confident that you are not trying to draw attention to yourself but rather want to give God the glory. Your sensitivity about not wanting to draw attention to yourself or be “melodramatic” indicates your true focus!
    As we travel through this life the Lord teaches us through the trials He brings us through, so it is most appropriate and indeed helpful to share lessons learned and request prayer of other saints.
    Since my diagnosis of cancer almost four months ago I have started a blog not only to process it all through writing (as you mentioned) but to share with others how the Lord is using this season of my life to refine me as through fire. My friends have told me that they are encouraged by what I share of my struggles and are blessed to be able to participate both as witnesses of God’s grace and participants by their ministry of prayer.
    I would encourage you to continue to let us in so that we may rejoice with you and weep with you (Romans 12:15).

  • Jennifer

    Amen to your daughter and my dear friend Debbie’s words. Sometimes it is humbling to call for prayer for ourselves. I can remember times I wanted to resist, yet the Spirit was persistent — make the call, ask. And God has blessed that call more than I can imagine. How can we bear one another’s burdens if we don’t share? Even though none of us know the future, you are in a special time of trusting and waiting – casting those extra cares so you can focus on what God has given you for this day, this moment. Praying it is just a “blip on the screen” – nothing but a call to faithfulness, in prayer and request. May He fill you with grace and wisdom!

  • Tambra Lucas

    Melodramatic? Absolutely not! If we are not sharing and asking for prayer how can we have that “koinonia love” (sharing, partnership, stewardship)agape or unconditional love in action, by the sharing of our sufferings? Believers are allowed to participate in prayer!!
    That’s a partnership. Being a part of His Great Salvation!
    Paul did this if you read in Philippians when he talked with other believers about their partnership with him in the gospel. They “SHARED” his suffering, his poverty, his message and their very lives with him in the gospel. You are sharing your very life, with believers of the body of Christ, and glorifying God through showing others how to handle trials, issues, and sufferings according to the gospel. And as you have said trusting in Him has given you perfect peace. Our covenant with God is based on Trusting Him! It takes faith to totally Trust Him. Faith is at the heart of a covenant. The covenant becomes an anchor where Christians can hold onto God’s faithfulness even in the midst of circumstances. And that gives us that peace you are talking about, even when you do not know the outcome or the diagnosis. Sister, You are showing great strength in trusting Him and it is evident! That kind of faith encourages and strengthens others. Anyone who is doing the work of the kingdom is to be encouraged, supported and prayed for. It is part of God’s “Great Salvation” Thank you for do His great work, let us pray for you it is a kingdom blessing. love you, keep sharing!

  • Kimberly Wagner

    Thank you so much for your encouragement, dear friend. I would love to see your blog, it is always a blessing to read your comments here, I’m sure your blog inspires those who read.

    Blessings, friend!

  • Kimberly Wagner

    Thank you, Jennifer. I agree it is always good to invite others to help bear the burden. I am so blessed to have so many (like you) who are willing to intercede in prayer and encourage with words of truth.

    Blessings ~

  • Kimberly Wagner

    You are precious, dear sister! Thank you for sharing and for your faithfulness in intercession for me and so many others!

  • Carrie Gaul

    Oh, Precious friend…

    Angela just sent me to your blog…KNOW I am praying as you walk through these next days of tests and waiting. Oh, how He loves you, Kim… and will carry you so tenderly through these days.

    Please know you are welcome to call or message anytime…

    “Let the beloved of the Lord rest secure in him, for he shields him all day long, and the one the Lord loves rests between his shoulders ( Deuteronomy 33:12).”

    Much love, Carrie