I’ve told you before that I’m a big believer in starting off my day in the Word and prayer. I need to hear from God, I need for Him to deal with my heart, prepare me for the day, and answer my questions. I need to sit and listen to His instruction. I need (and want) to spend time worshiping Him.
One reason I’m such a proponent of keeping a consistent schedule in the Word, is that it is a steady source of encouragement and validation of God’s personal involvement in my life. Take for instance this morning . . .
I woke up heavy-hearted. A lot of things feel like they’re crushing me right now: friends who are suffering, couples we are counseling, a packed schedule, growing responsibilities and difficult decisions that need to be made, and besides all of this, my personal battles with sin and selfishness. Okay, are you thoroughly depressed now?
I started my day on shaky ground, a little unsettled, and definitely in need of wise counsel.
Thankfully, in my regular schedule of reading, right where I was supposed to be on this day, God had a clear message for me. He brought a tender rebuke with this question:
“Do you not remember?”
I was in Mark chapter 8 this morning, and the disciples are stressing that they’ve forgotten bread and thinking Jesus was hinting around about the problem of having no bread (when that’s not what He was doing at all).
Jesus interrupts their discussion to say:
[box]Why are you discussing the fact that you have no bread? Do you not yet perceive or understand? Are your hearts hardened? Having eyes do you not see, and having ears do you not hear?[/box]
And do you not remember?
When I broke the five loaves for the five thousand, how many baskets full of broken pieces did you take up?” They said to him, “Twelve.” “And the seven for the four thousand, how many baskets full of broken pieces did you take up?” And they said to him, “Seven.” And he said to them, “Do you not yet understand?” (Mark 8:17–21 emphasis mine)[/box]
Wow. What a question. “Do you not remember?”
With that question, He began faithfully walking me down the path of “Past Provision.” He reminded me of recent victories and past answers to BIG prayers. He took me through the course of painful events and seemingly impossible situations throughout my life time, and He gently, but with authority, asked me: “Do you not remember?”
Oh, yes, Faithful Savior, I do remember.
You have held me in Your hand and led me through rugged terrain, but You have never left me, and You have provided just what I needed—when it was needed. You have answered prayer in sometimes the most unpredictable ways, but always in the way that is best.
At times, You hide yourself in the storm, but it is never without good purpose, and always through every difficulty, You are training me to walk in greater dependence, to stretch out further in faith, to trust You in the darkness, and to remember who You are when chaos is swirling around me.
I do remember, but so often I fail to take my heart back there to those places of answered prayer and miraculous provision. Thank you for getting my attention today and reminding me that there is no need to fear, You’ve “got this,” I’ve seen You be faithful before, and I know You will continue to provide what is needed, when it’s needed!
Yes, I do remember, but thank You for reminding me, today!
What do you need to turn over to the Savior today?
Are you struggling with a “forgotten bread” issue while Jesus is asking you to trust His ability to provide?
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