Where Have You Been?

That’s a question I’ve been asked a lot lately. For one who’s been a “daily blogger” for more than half a decade, suddenly going almost a month without a post seems like a jolt (more so for me than for you, dear faithful reader). All I can say is: taking care of LeRoy is now my first priority. And my life looks much different now. Imagine doing not only your regular duties, but doing double (doing for two), and then multiply that by the additional load of caring for someone with a serious illness, and you’ll have an idea of why it’s difficult for me to find time to write.

My mission hasn’t changed, just my function. My hope and desire, and God’s mission for me (and for you) is to glorify Him in the season and situation where He’s placed us. For more than a week, I’ve been pleading with the Lord to provide some moments for me to write . . . but until this morning, no space at all was given, so that tells me that writing a blog post wasn’t what the Lord had for me these past few weeks.

Even blogging must be held with an open hand.

Not a lot has changed since you last heard from me. We’re four months into this journey, or if you count the weird symptoms he’s struggled with, that’s been two and a half years. And he’s still suffering with as much pain as he had when we first came home from the hospital. That’s the hardest part of all of this—watching him suffer and seeing no improvement. The days of pain wear him down, well really both of us. I don’t endure his pain physically, but I ache as I watch him suffer, and I exhaust myself with wanting to take it away from him.

I’m vainly battling his physical torment with a heart heavy with sighs and compassion.

As I type this, Christmas music is playing, lifting the hope of the gospel—peace on earth, good will toward men—and the joy of the first Advent. I watch as LeRoy, eyes closed to try to deal with the pain, worships while suffering. His face is tight in a grimace, but he’s silently mouthing the words of the song in worship of his Savior.

This weekend, we’ll return to Dallas for more tests and appointments, and on Monday he’ll have another MRI to see how the spinal cord lesions look. I will send an update when I can.

Even now, as I take a rare moment to type a quick message to you, my mind is running through a list of things that need to be done . . . laundry is waiting to be switched from the washer to the dryer, and another dirty pile is waiting beside the washer. It’s almost time to prepare another meal . . . I’m wondering why the business office at UT Southwestern hasn’t returned my call, and keeping the phone close by in case it rings with news from them . . . there are a million things I need to be doing other than typing, but I’m so glad to have a few moments (finally) to send word to you and let you know that, yes, we’re still alive, and yes, God is still faithfully leading us through this strange territory . . . and there is so much I hope to one day share with you that He’s doing, if and when He provides the space of time.

[box]For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:

A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.

What gain has the worker from his toil? I have seen the business that God has given to the children of man to be busy with. He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man’s heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end. I perceived that there is nothing better for them than to be joyful and to do good as long as they live; also that everyone should eat and drink and take pleasure in all his toil—this is God’s gift to man. (Ecclesiastes 3:1–13).[/box]

For every season, God has a purpose and plan. And for me, this season is one of caring for my precious husband as he faces the biggest challenge of his life. I want to serve him well—and honor my Savior in this service.

But I do hope, in God’s timing, He’ll provide space for me to sit down a few moments and use the weakness of my feeble writing attempts to point you to His faithfulness.

This is what I’m hoping for this December: usually this time of year, I’m pouring myself into preparing Advent posts. I hope to have enough time to at least pull out some of those from the archives and dust them off or freshen them up a bit, so we’ll have a post each morning to point our hearts toward the most important thing about this season—celebrating God coming in flesh as the babe to rescue His people.

May we all take advantage of every opportunity this season to share the story of this babe who came as our Rescuer!

For those of you who are still praying for us, we are so very grateful!

Photo by Kaitlyn Baker on Unsplash


  • Gail

    Just know you are not out of our minds. We know you are more than busy and pray you can still feel the prayers. Just not sure you even have time to read anything either. Hugs bunches of Love and prayers sent your way. So good to hear from you and yet we so want the pain to go away too. May you feel the LORD’S presence very near!

  • Annette

    Send many prayers up for the 2 of you! Prayers for relief from pain, for rest and refreshing, for encouragement and blessing!

  • Anna Schrock

    Dearest of Kimberlys and Leroys,
    Because of upholding the Lord and because of the ministry the Lord gave you
    the Lord mysteriously,as in Job, has and is allowing a season much like yours
    (absolutely NOT minimizing what Leroy and you are going through!) for
    some of bro’s and sisters in Christ are experiencing. Excruciating pain-
    ‘physically and emotional exhaustion but with tremendous spiritual growth.
    About to have our company Christmas party,a fantastic witness for the Lord
    as many of our employees are unsaved. We show them how much fun
    A Christian can have through goofy games and antics singing and a
    message that is always totally timely! We have always come away with
    amazement at what the Lord points out,who He touches and how-WOW!
    Jon and I have been under severe phycological and emotional spiritual
    attacks for about two years now -leading to physical trauma as well;We
    KNOW whois trying to trip us up!
    He Is so faithful to us! We will remain faithfu-we are determined to remai
    faithful to Him even though we may fai t a bit along the way!
    “Our sins be removed l,Lord; our comfort zones need to be taken away!”
    Thank You SO MUCH! We are praying this pain will be totally removed
    health restored allowing others to see and be amazed,saved and drawn to
    His newness!

  • Mayra Ortiz

    Praying for you both my dear sister! Thank you for keeping us updated and
    Sharing your heart with us! Blessings!

  • Terri

    Oh Kimberly, we have missed you and are lifting you up in our prayers. Thank you for the update. Thank you for thinking of us, your readers. But we know where you are and whether we understand it or not, we know that God is holding you and LeRoy in the palm of His grace-filled hands. Blessings for endurance for the race that y’all are running together. Wish I was a neighbor to help with that laundry; but it will be there until. Right? I pray this is comforting as it is to me. With love. “Seeing then that we have a great High Priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:14-16

  • Rebekah Beene

    Again, my sister, you have touched my heart. Your words have encouraged me in ways I cannot explain. But your words have also reminded me that this season isn’t like any other but in it I am finding peace and joy. Always praying for complete healing for your LeRoy. And asking God to keep using you (and me) through it all. What a blessing to know you.

  • Alice Barber

    Kim, I am still praying and glad to get this report as I had been wondering how you both were. Our little cottage is available should you need it while in Dallas. Would love to give you a big hug!

  • Steve Whipple

    Praying for y’all! You two were such a blessing to us back in July at The Lodge. My mind goes back to those few days that came at a crucial time for us. God used your wisdom, love and encouragement as a salve on some open wounds and allowed us to have a brief harbor in the midst of a storm. Praying for deliverance for LeRoy and endurance for you both! May He, by His grace, grant you healing and strength in this season.

  • Glenda Mclearen

    Kimberly : My eyes are spilling over as I read your post and heart is heavy for the place you and LeRoy are now. I do pray for you both – asking for healing, strength, the Doctors to be given insight and discernment. But mostly for the trial by fire you are in now. Just know even when you have no spare seconds to write many sisters and brothers are lifting you up in prayer. If I was close – I’d do your laundry and cooking and whatever needed to be done. I am not so I pray from Southaven. Our God hears from hear and His ear is inclined to the prayers of His children.

  • Lisa McBay

    Blessings dear Kimberly and Leroy. Praying that your upcoming tests and doctor visits will yield further healing of Leroy’s condition and a clearing of the lesions. Praying for strength and encouragement for both of you. Each of you are being strengthened by the prayers of the saints and the ministry of the Holy Spirit. Our faithful intercessiors- Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit are ever living to make intercession for the saints. I am rejoicing over the doctor’s comment regarding Leroy being raised up for His work and ministry once again.
    I am one of the three women who met you all on your way to the doctor’s appointment on October 31. What a precious blessing to meet you both and to pray with and for you both. We were on our way to a prayer assignment in Israel, but were blessed to meet and pray together with such a blessed and Godly couple. Our prayers with you all led to several other prayer encounters in Collin Street Bakery that day.
    Our God ireigns and His glory is being manifested in the lives of both you and Leroy. May His powerful grace, mercy, love and healing be made known to you and your family. Blessings precious ones!

  • Donna

    Kimberly and LeRoy,

    You are both in my thoughts and prayers. I am praying the pain is taken away and that he is heal.