Learning a New Rhythm

April slipped by without a word from me here; the blog was silent and I’m sorry I wasn’t able to send you an update. Thank you precious readers who continue to carry us, to pray and intercede for our needs, even when you don’t hear from us. Will you ask the Lord to open a space in my daily schedule for writing (if He still desires for me to minister in that way)? I’m needing to find a new rhythm that will allow time to record what He is doing, how He is working, what He is teaching us, even if it’s just a few minutes at a time.

I do that in my own personal (handwritten) journal, but getting it to my laptop is a different story.

The last time I posted was the day before LeRoy’s third Remicade infusion. That treatment date was the one we had long anticipated—because doctors had repeatedly told us that one would be the infusion where LeRoy would really “turn the corner” and we’d see dramatic improvement in his condition. A week after that infusion, as LeRoy was struggling horribly with stomach issues, he said to me, “I turned the corner all right, the corner leading straight to the bathroom!” It was a terribly difficult five days for him, spending much of it sick in the bathroom, or too sick to make it to the bathroom. At first, I thought it might be from the treatment, but we got word that several other people were picking up a nasty stomach bug and we realized that must be what his body was battling.

We’re two weeks away from the next infusion and we’ve seen no “dramatic improvement.” He’s on another round of antibiotics (third time since March 15), so they had to move his fourth infusion to May 21st (two weeks later than originally scheduled). It’s too dangerous to add Remicade to a body that may still have infection. But it’s disappointing to have to put it off.

He is weary. The ongoing pain is wearing on him. But he continues to press into the love of Christ, and looks for ways to minister, even through his pain. Often he sends out a Scripture or devotional thought to friends, fellow pastors, or people in our congregation.

This is a copy of a word of encouragement that LeRoy sent to the men of our church last week:

“Be exalted, O God, above the heavens; let your glory be over all the earth” (Psalm 57:5).

Deeper than disaster, danger, and distress is the desire for God to be glorified. If that can be accomplished by saving us from our circumstances, then praise God! If it is better accomplished by our circumstances remaining unchanged while we continue to show our confidence in God before a watching world, praise God as well. Either way, God fulfills His purpose for you as you delight to honor Him. (Tim Keller)

Have a blessed day men, you are in my prayers.”

He’s trying to move more, doing a few “laps” around the back porch each day (using his walking forearm crutches, and moving slowly), but when he gets hit with another infection, it knocks him back from any progress he’s made. When he attempts to do the smallest amount of activity, it triggers a lot of pain.

Would you pray for me to have wisdom in how to encourage him, how to best support and serve him? Also, I would appreciate prayer to somehow find time and energy to squeeze in a spot in my very busy day to write again, but only if that would please the Father. My first duty, and privilege, is to serve my man. And that requires time and energy.

My first hours of the day must be spent before the face of God, or I’m in no condition to be around anyone, and certainly not able to serve LeRoy with a right heart. Being with God and caring for LeRoy are my two priorities right now, and if the Lord provides a new rhythm with this new life that includes writing posts again, I praise Him. If it doesn’t, I praise Him.

He is worthy of our worship—no matter what!

Love you all soooo much and can’t tell you how grateful we are for your prayers!


  • Peggy

    I was so excited to see you had posted this morning. Updates are great but it was hard to read that Leroy has had little improvement and has suffered even more through this flu. I know your only strength is in Christ. I can’t imagine the pain of seeing my husband suffer so. The only place to go is to the feet of Jesus. He promises to be with us, never leaving us alone.
    In the midst of a challenging situation in our extended family regarding job loss a friend sent me to Psalm 57. May 2 entry in Keller’s devotional on the Psalms talks about being surrounded by great danger. David continues to sing praise to God in the midst of deep darkness. “There’s light and high beauty forever beyond the reach of any evil shadows in the world. This is not mere stoic defiance (I won’t let it get me down) but theological hope. The universe is an endless ocean of Gods joy and glory. We are caught temporarily in a little drop of sadness here on earth. But eventually it will be removed. Regardless of what happens immediately to believers, eventually it will be alright.”
    We continue to pray; strength, hope and an unwavering faith as God walks with you through this difficult time. May He comfort your weary souls today. Thank you for always pointing us to Christ and praising God in the midst of darkness.

  • cathy

    Praying that Our Lord & Savior would use this new med to comfort LeRoy, heal him & bring peace to both of you

  • Robbin Dunkum

    Your in my thoughts and prayers. Love you! Thanks for sharing I will definitely pray for the specifics.❤️🙏

  • Priscilla

    So thankful to see your update today, though sorry that the news is not as good as we all continue to hope and pray. Will continue prayers for you and your husband through this very difficult season.

  • Gail

    It was so good to hear a report, and yet, if it is taking too much of your energy, we all understand. We can pray even if we don’t know, for we KNOW that God does and is with you every moment of your day! We care so much and pray His strength will continue to be there for both of you, which is will. So so sorry for the pain Leroy is going through and the pain in your heart as you watch and care for him. May God’s blessing flow over, beside, in front and behind and In you as you endure this journey. Much love and prayers ♥

  • Melinda

    Love you both with all my heart! I continue to send prayers each day that God will make Leroy whole again and give you kim the strength to continue to care for your man. I can’t imagine what y’all are going through. Praying the next treatment will be the one that turns things around! Love you both dearly!♥️♥️

  • Linda Suit

    I pray for you both every day. I can’t imagine what you are both going through, but I do know this. God has you in the palm of His hand. He will see you through this. You both have so much to give others I can’t imagine Leroy not being healed, and that is my wish. You are both loved, by God, and by many that have crossed paths with you, even if it might have been for a short time. Jerry and I are grateful for time spent with you and your family. Continuing in prayer.

  • Kristy

    I was literally just praying for you and LeRoy and then checked for an update. The Lord has led me to pray that you will be able to record what you learning through these trials so that it will encourage even more people than are already being touched by your trying times. I was encouraged by Spurgeon a couple of days ago and in the sermons I heard yesterday that we are constantly being delivered over to death for Jesus’ sake, SO THAT the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. 2 Cor. 4:11. We must constantly align our thoughts to what is true. Satan is constantly battling for our mind, but we know our God is faithful. Spurgeon says, “Lord, if help does come, it must come from You. We believe help will come. Though we do not know how it will come, we are looking to You. Though we do not know when, we are looking to You. Though we do not know what Youwould have us to do, still we are looking to You. Our eyes may be full of tears, but they are on You.” Bottom line: we are utterly dependent upon our faithful God. He would have it no other way. I love you, dear sister. I am praying as much for you as I am LeRoy. I know that being a caregiver 24/7 is challenging. May the LORD give you strength for today.

  • Rebekah Beene

    Oh oh yes. The waiting is where our faith is built the strongest. But some days I just want to move on! Please pray for me too – “to have wisdom in how to encourage him, how to best support and serve my hubby” too.

  • N. Lang

    So delighted to hear from you. I kept going to the blogg wondering if I had just missed an email of your post. I’m so move by your testimony of how you guys are glorifying God through it all. I will continue to pray for relief of pain, infection to be cleared and time to write a few line to us. Thank you for your devotion to God and your man.

  • Kristy

    It is kind of funny, but then I just know it is like God, but He had me pray about your having time to write this morning before I even read your blog post. Anyway, yesterday I was encouraged through the preaching of the Word in 2 Corinthians 4 that though we are afflicted in every way, we are not crushed. We are just an earthen vessel that the surpassing retained of the power of God will be seen in us, and not ourselves. We who live are constantly being delivered over to death for Jesus’ sake, THAT the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. Paul saw weakness as a conduit for God to supply power, Make no mistake, the Lord is being glorified in the midst of your trial. Dear Sister, I pray for you as much as I do LeRoy. Though he is suffering physical pain, I know that the struggles you have as a caregiver are just as difficult although in a differerent way. May the Lord strengthen you with His power and grace today. Much love to both of you.

  • Jody Gates

    Thank you for this update, I do continue to pray for both of you. It is an encouragement to me as you say you want to do what pleases the Father and LeRoy continues to minister to others in his suffering. My regular prayers for you both continue!!! And may you have a blessed Mother’s Day!!

  • Jennifer Crawford

    We are thinking of you and praying for you up here in Indiana! I hate it that you wonderful people are going through this. Definitely praying for strength and relief for both of you.

  • Ana Estrada

    Praying from Panamá, thanks for your example. God fill you with strength and wisdom! Prov 31:25

  • Tracy Garcia

    I continue to pray as the Lord brings you and Leroy to mind. Your writing is a blessing to us but the example you live is what has the most profound impact. You have blessed so many already. You are right where God wants you to be right now. This is your first ministry. The Lord will show you, guide you, lead and direct your every step as you look to Him in all things. May you be strengthened in HIS might and refreshed by His Spirit.

  • Christine

    Bless you both. My heart is filled with prayer for you both as you continue to remain faithful during this difficult time. May God Bless You Both.

  • Glenda Mclearen

    Kimberly – prayers continue to be lifted for you and your sweet husband . May the Lord be glorified ! Asking for healing for him and strength and discernment for you.

  • Mary Stuart

    So sorry for your troubles. What do people do that don’t have the Lord??
    Love and prayers,
    Mary Stuart

  • Kristin

    I am so greatful for the update but will admit I am so bummed it’s not a better report. I know God has a plan and a purpose, I believe that with all my heart. I know you guys are touching lives you would have never came in contact with otherwise and their lives will never be the same (knowing from personal experience❤️). I also know I’m supposed to be saying something encouraging here but I just want to sit around and cry with you and beg God for it all to end! I mean out of everyone on the planet…out of any couple on the planet…I’m just gonna say it- it just sucks! I am praying for you guys and think of you both more than you know. I love you both dearly…your my spiritual parents and I am forever greatful. I am thanking God for healing and strength for you both, it’s coming- xo

  • Pamela

    The Lord has you right where He wants you, and is using you mightily! Thank you for your transparency and faithfulness to your God and your husband. Praying for your strength and your endurance, keep doing just what the Lord puts before you, day by day.

  • Kimberly Terry

    Dearest Kimberly, Praise The Lord! Today I found myself at the library to print something for my sister to put in a card I am mailing to her. So I heard check your email at att. I do and there it is an email from you about finding a new rhythm. Dear Jesus we come now to ask for Your gentle touch for Kimberly guide her steps during this time and comfort her Father. Let your will be done with her precious husband. Bless him for continuing to try to be an encourager for the other men in his church. Kimberly we gently lay you and your family at the feet of Jesus Christ. You are a precious lady to us all Love and Prayers Kimberly T.