2018 Reflections and Lessons

The year of our Lord, twenty-eighteen, began on a Monday. And that made the new year seem right on schedule. A new week, new month, new year, and a fresh start should always begin on a Monday, don’t you think? So, 2019 feels a little off to me. In fact, I’m a little behind on all of it (which explains why you didn’t receive this post earlier).

Most years, I enjoy taking the days between December 26th and New Year’s Eve to reflect and ponder, plan and dream. Normally, I read through the previous year’s journal and, if possible, a few older ones as well. It takes me back to where we were a year ago, or sometimes a decade ago, and allows me to see how faithful God has been. It also reveals my immaturity and helps me to realize where growth was (or is) needed. But best of all, reading through past journals brings a flood of reasons to praise God where answered prayers are recorded.

Honestly, it’s been hard reading what my 2018 journal holds.

The theme of exhaustion, non-stop labor, and depletion runs through much of last year’s daily entries. But in the painful journey, in the difficult unknown, there were treasures that God quietly hid for us to find in the darkness (Isaiah 45:3). I’m jotting down some of those treasures as reminders to me (for those days when I get disoriented and forget the lessons learned).

Lessons for Navigating Seasons of Affliction:

1. Adjusting my perspective is a daily must.

Most days begin with a weary body and foggy mind. Sleepless nights are common when you are a patient or a caregiver, but even when sleep comes, there is the depleting aspect of the never-ending task of dealing with the sickness and pain. It is a battle of the mind and body—for the patient and for those who care for him. The only hope for navigating the challenges of the day (whether you’re in a time of affliction or a time of abundance, health, and peace) is by getting a true perspective. There are many voices out there, lots of self-help philosophies, and feel-good belief systems—but there is only one source of truth: God’s Word. As I open His Word, with a heart that trembles in awe of His authority and grace, God speaks (Isaiah 66:2).

As God’s character jumps off the pages, I’m drawn into a deeper admiration of Him and it invites me into wonder, worship, and praise.

Worship provides the attitude adjustment I so desperately need first thing in the morning.  

2. Get in on the supernatural aspect of thankfulness.

I don’t understand why or how, but something tangible happens when I lift up thanks to God—out loud. There are so many reasons for thanking Him through this past year. One huge thanks is that LeRoy is still here with us. He’s still hopeful and, although daily he endures excruciating pain, he’s still working toward recovery. I’m thankful that his spinal cord lesions have shrunk to a miniscule size. We’re still hoping for a completely clear MRI, but his latest scans are so much better than a year ago. Incredibly, although his left leg is still impaired, his right leg works just fine and that allows him to drive on days when he feels well enough to attempt that. What a gift that is. Driving allows him to feel somewhat “normal.”  

God commands us to give Him thanks in all things, but ironically, the action of thanksgiving is actually beneficial to the one giving thanks.

3. Danger zones can be deadly.

This year, I’ve learned how terribly dangerous it can be when I give up just a little ground, when I let down my guard to indulge in a few straying thoughts, and how easily that can lead to: coveting, entertaining lies, wallowing in self-pity, and developing sinful thought patterns.

The principles of “taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ” and guarding what my mind dwells on has never been more necessary (2 Corinthians 10:5; Philippians 4:8)

4. When in danger, quick action is absolutely necessary.

The moment I realize I’m caving to self-pity (which normally manifests itself in a grumpy attitude), I have a choice. I can keep heading down that road, or I can drop to my knees to do some serious crying out for help (Hebrews 4:16). God rushes in every time we ask Him for grace and help—but the problem is, so often it is tempting to stay at the pity-party rather than going to our knees.

Believe me, I’ve learned that the comfort God brings when I ask for it is far more satisfying than the temporary “consolation” that self-pity brings.

5. The good provision of true friendship is a precious grace.

This one is tricky, because I’ve found that if I’m not careful, my dependence on friends grows too great. But good friendship is one of those kind mercies that God provides us with that can be very beneficial in our time of loss, suffering, or affliction. It is an enormous blessing to receive an encouraging text or Scripture from a friend who is faithfully praying for us. It is an incredible gift, to have a friend pull in the drive with an unexpected delivery of groceries or a meal. It is a powerful support to have a friend pray with me over the phone or offer to take me out for a drive—even if it’s just for half an hour. Just yesterday, as I was out at the woodpile loading up the back of the truck to carry wood to the porch (to keep the fire going that warms our home), a kind man and his son (from our church) unexpectedly pulled in to deliver a fresh load of wood to my porch!

The way God uses His body to provide for us, through friends who serve us in our time of need, is a reason to stir our hearts to deep worship of Him!

6. Reading good books provides encouragement and practical help.

One of the biggest revelations when you’re living in a season of affliction, is how very much is out there that you just don’t understand. How many times have I tried to offer comfort—from the ease of an armchair and a life untouched by real tragedy? I was a novice at suffering and a pitiful comforter. This year, I’ve found it so helpful to read what others, far wiser and godlier than me, have learned as they endure long seasons of affliction. I’m so thankful for good books that dear friends passed on to us like this one: “A Book of Comfort for Those in Sickness.” Books authored by sufferers are rich with insight and help as you walk the road of suffering.

If you know a friend who is in a difficult season, consider passing on to them a book that ministered to you when you needed it.

7. Practice the “grace of remembering” to strengthen your hope for the future.

This is so important, especially on days when hope seems ridiculous. Go back. Go back to those times when you’ve seen God come through, when you’ve lived in the glory of answered prayer, when you’ve known that God is near and at work in incredible ways. Go back and remember.

Let those memories fuel your hope as you focus on the mercy and grace of our Almighty God.

There’s much more I could say, but hey, this post is already way too long. There’s still more lessons I need, but I’m grateful that our Teacher is merciful and knows how to take my hand and lead me into the path of learning at a slow pace.

What have you learned during seasons of suffering? I’d love to hear. And, as always, we are so very grateful for your prayers.


  • Vicki Bedford

    Oh, Kimberly, you are writing from a place and season (however long and difficult) of which you never dreamed. The truths and insights you are “penning” are from your need to draw deeply from the well of God’s promises and truths and the minute-by-minute, day-by-day strength He is supplying to you and LeRoy. Though you no longer have the time you once had to study, meditate, and write, what God is teaching you is providing deep, gut-wrenching, practical truths from the trenches of your life as you pour out what you are learning through your pen. We are the recipients of what you are learning and passing along through the “gift of words” which God has planted in you.

    Just as God continues to use the transparency and truths that you and LeRoy have learned and shared about your walk through the valley of painful, marital struggles, I pray that he will bring you both through the valley of physical suffering and hardship and allow you to minister together in rich, green pastures on the other side of the valley.

    Know that we love you and are praying for you.

  • Ana Pérez-Rubio de Bautista

    My precious friend, you bless me so much. I ve been passing for a long time of sickness this year. And your teachings are so refreshing to my soul. Besides the celiac disease now I have IBS and I am so limited in the foods I can eat and I deal with pain all the time. But incredibly I have found contment in the Lord in my Shaddai, my All Sufficirnt God! He has taken me to refuse self-pity, to rejoice in Him, and find the fountain of my joy only in Him. Keeping my mind under His authority is vital and going to my knees and depending on Him is my daily bread.
    Your journey has helped me to see God in you and have hope. Still praying for you and expecting God to give your dear husband more relief and recovery for pain. This season will pass but the teachings will remain forever. Love you.
    Your Mexican pastor’s wife and intercesor.

  • Kathy Leverett

    Praying for you and LeRoy! What an encourager you have been to all those who have struggled and suffered this year! May God richly bless!

  • Barb Shepard

    Thank you for your posts. I am always encouraged and strengthened by your words. Praying for you and LeRoy.

  • Rebecca Einwechter

    Dear Kim, how I pray God’s sweet blessing and help to you and LeRoy! May Rom. 15:13 comfort you.

    Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye May abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Spirit.

    Please know my prayers are with you. You are a dear and mighty blessing to so many of us. Thank you!

  • Rita Smith

    Thank you for your post Kimberly. My husband also has been dealing with a daily back pain issue which is severe & debilitating. It is so good to read the posts of someone who truly understands. One of the things the Lord has taught me in 2018 from my daily focus on Psalm 46: Be Still. Just try to focus on Him as I focus on the task at hand, knowing that the Lord knows all about the depth of the pain; the physical & emotional pain that daily affects my husband & the emotional pain I feel as I daily see him in need of pain relief. May the Lord bless you & LeeRoy in 2019 & give you peace,guidance & strength

  • Vivian Etherington

    Thank you, Kim for sharing. You continue to encourage and challenge me! You’re such a blessing in the midst of a life you never could have expected! Love and prayers for you and LeRoy!

  • Glenda McLearen

    Kimberly – my heart is stirred by your sharing. It reminds me to see through spiritual eyes what is important. To be thankful for all things – because our Lord is Sovereign- He is the Ancient of Days and He pours out His love on His children without end. The sorrow and pain we see in this world we ll never know the answers to the whys but we know nothing that we must endure now can compare to the glory and beauty we ll know when we shed these old bodies and arrive at our eternal home . Then we’ll see our Jesus – who suffered for us. What a day that ll be ! Prayers of strength and power and encreasing faith are prayed for you and LeRoy !

  • betty watterson

    Kim I am praying for you and Leroy today. I am thankful for your faithfulness and know God will bless and keep you.

  • Pauline Butler

    Kim, a few months back as I was going through a difficult time, I spent some time reading through the book of Hebrews. Chapter 12 grabbed my attention in a new way. Verses 5-11, in particular, became the focus of my study and meditation. One of the nuggets of truth that brought me great comfort was to recognize God’s loving and all-wise hand in the affliction He allowed and to understand that He chose the affliction to accomplish a specific purpose. That purpose was for my profit, that I might partake of his holiness and to bring forth “the peaceable fruit of righteousness” (v.10 & 11).

    He is producing fruit in your life and LeRoy’s life that is bringing glory to Him. He continues to speak through you to bring comfort, encouragement, and hope to all of us who have the privilege of reading your posts. He is expanding your ministry. Keep “looking unto Jesus…”, dear friend, and keep pointing us to Him. Sending a hug~~

  • Donna Doverspike

    Kim and LeRoy,

    I pray for you both and that a miracle comes soon. You both are such encourager to us all. May 2019 be the year of healing.


  • Sherry Landon

    Kim, I still pray for you and Bro.Leroy every morning and every evening. My husband, too has been pretty ill. It’s life-changing! Know that I will continue lifting you two up in my prayers.