Don’t Waste the Suffering

It had been a very hard day. LeRoy’s pain has been intense, and I’m unable to alleviate his suffering. So far, I’m managing to be out of his line of vision when the tears start spilling. I’m not wanting to add to the weight he’s carrying right now. The time will come for us to cry together, but not yet. Right now, I need to continue to be a strong and smiling encouragement for him. He told me this phrase has been running through his thoughts in his half-asleep state at night: “Don’t waste the suffering . . .” And I assured him that he’s not.

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Finding Joy in the Pain

It is a hard road to walk right now. It is. LeRoy is enduring much pain, we can’t see what is ahead for us, but we know one thing, our Redeemer is trustworthy. When I was such a young thing that I thought “suffering and trials” existed in the category of flat tires, heavy school loads, and flea houses, God was merciful with me. He understood that my understanding was limited to my experience and context, at least that’s what I think He means when He says:

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A River Runs Through the Pain

The pain is intense, I don’t know how he bears it, but he does. It wrenches my heart in two, seeing him cringe and his body contort from the pain, but at the same time, I’m amazed by the grace God is giving him to walk this road with a heart of surrender and worship. Truly amazed. In the midst of the pain, there is a river . . .

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Was the Cross Necessary?

Two weary-hearted friends trudged slowly home. Days before they were anticipating the Passover festival and wondering what they would witness as they followed the steps of the young rabbi. Would His friend Lazarus of Bethany attend the festivities, the one He brought back to life from the dead? Would there be more healings? More disturbances to the settled religious system?

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Are You Waiting?

My precious friend, Leanne, welcomed her sixth little one into the world the third day into spring and she is a precious Joy (surprise, Leanne!). I have a few more friends that have been waiting this spring; waiting for an “expected one.” On this date, four years ago, our long wait for little Esther was complete . . . and our lives have never been the same! Now, we are waiting for our newest, who isn’t due until the fall. We know the baby is coming, and the arrival is growing closer with each passing day. But for a mom, the wait can seem longer than the allotted days on the calendar.

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