Determined to Not Lose Heart

Determined to Not Lose Heart

I felt it hot and heavy breathing down my neck—the enemy’s lie.

What’s it matter? Give up. This is too hard.

I remember the exact spot where I was standing when his foul breath blew that lie across my face, the sound vibrating in accusing waves through my brain. That was almost 15 years ago, and there’s been many hard battles fought since then. And in every battle, the enemy tempts us to lose heart.

It’s always about worship, you know. No matter what form the temptation takes, it’s always about worship. The enemy seeks to devour our joy in God, tempts us to turn our hearts from Him, tries to convince us that God’s unworthy of our worship. He tries to deaden our heart in battle.

Will I trust God and worship or will I default to doubt?

Who will I follow?

Who will I bow down to?

Will I believe the enemy’s lies and turn on God?

Will I give way to doubt, allow despair to gobble up faith?

Will I cease to worship the only One worthy to receive worship?

Will I lose heart?

I was standing at the kitchen sink when the battle reached its climax and I grabbed hard onto the edge of the counter, preparing myself for the stand I was about to take. And I said it out loud.

“I will worship Jesus—no matter what!”

I slung it out of my mouth like a weapon at an unseen foe. For good measure I repeated it a little louder and with greater force the second time.

The enemy had been taunting me with lies for awhile, and he seemed to be winning every battle. He was trying to convince me that God didn’t care, wasn’t working, wasn’t going to come through this time. The liar was wrong. Again.

As soon as the words left my mouth, I knew this battle was over. My stand was secure and I dropped to my knees on the kitchen floor to worship. The fearful circumstances grew worse, but the enemy knew better than to bring the same taunts again—that line of attack had only resulted in a firmer resolution and a heart turned to praise.

Worship is happening 24/7 in God’s realm. It is the air of heaven—unceasing praise and adoration. One day, we’ll join in with the heavenly host to worship Him there. We’ll worship without threat of attack or an onslaught of lies. There, worship will come naturally and flow freely. But here, within this realm, it is a different story.

The worship lifted here is of a different sort.

Only here will we worship while in battle.

Only here will we have opportunity to lift up the pure worship given while under assault.

Only here can worship serve to humiliate the enemy of our King. Because once we cross into eternity there will be no more battle with this enemy; he’ll be defeated.

Last year and this year, the same phrase is tucked within the two different Scripture passages that God impressed me to focus on:

“We do not lose heart.”

He is impressing that phrase on me daily.

There is so much that comes against us to tempt us to lay down the weapons of our warfare, to go back to bed, to give up . . . but how can we turn away from the One who calls us to follow Him? He alone deserves our worship and obedience, no matter what. Worship offered while in battle is the sweetest worship we can offer.

I don’t want to miss out on offering this sacred worship that comes while under fire. I’m determined that I will not lose heart. Will you join me? Let’s worship while in battle. Let’s turn the enemy’s lies on his head and worship God for the Sovereign King He is—no matter what the enemy says or brings against us.

Let’s take our stand to worship God alone.

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.

Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace.

In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end, keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints . . . (Ephesians 6:10–18).

This is what I’m galvanizing in my heart. This is the battle plan for worship. This is the truth to stand on and the staying power for not losing heart.

Will you join me in memorizing this passage?



  1. Posted by Donna Maggart

    Yes! I will! such sweet words! I am ready and willing and I am able although the enemy hates that. As they say,,,,I am in it to win it! The Lord is with us and yesterday His presence was with me and I was able to claim victory over a situation that has taunted me and harassed me since my teenage years. Praise be to my King!


    • Posted by Kimberly Wagner

      Praising the Lord with you, Donna! So excited for you to get victory 🙂

      Keep pressing into all that Jesus has for you ~


  2. Posted by Robbin Dunkum

    Thank you, Kim! What a great reminder I will not lose heart❤ It’s just what I needed to hear. Love you dear friend!


    • Posted by Kimberly Wagner

      Hello, Robbin! Good to hear from you 🙂 Thanks for taking time to leave a comment and so glad this spoke to you today.

      Much love to you ~


  3. Posted by GENE MEFFERD

    My my Kim, I can’t even begin to tell you how much I need to hear this right now! My wife filed for divorce just over 7 months ago. God has been running me through the gauntlet of trust building and faith strengthening. And just last weekend my attorney quit on me and I can’t afford another one at this point. My wife’s attorney goes to a Baptist Church we used to be members at. I’m at the point that I believe in the promises and trust God to help me handle this on my own the rest of the way. He always uses the weak to beat the strong! I’m moving forward with the backing of the leadership of my church knowing that I’m following the path God has laid before me watching obstacles move out of the way. I WILL NOT BOW!
    Blessings to you and Leroy for the ministry God has given you.


    • Posted by Kimberly Wagner

      Hello, Gene,

      I’m so sorry to hear that your wife has filed for divorce. It is so difficult to watch the dissolving of a marriage, and I pray that God might step into your situation to do a work of redemption. He delights in bringing about unexpected healing and reconciliation! Thankful that today’s post was encouraging to you and grateful for your kind words.

      May God direct every decision and provide you with grace to walk in obedience through this difficult season ~


  4. You have no idea how much I needed this today. Thank you!!


    • Posted by Kimberly Wagner

      You are welcome, friend! Praying God uses this to encourage you as you face the battle today, Julie ~


  5. Posted by Beth

    Thank you, sister, for truth and encouragement! I felt it as you talked about grabbing the kitchen counter and then slinging out the truth! I am going through a difficult time and God challenged me with this, “Praise Me anyway! Let the dark coat of doubt fall to the ground! Lift your hands and receive the garment of praise! Praise me anyway!” I did and things began to turn just a bit the next day! Bless you!


    • Posted by Kimberly Wagner

      So thankful, Beth! So grateful for God’s empowering grace and truth 🙂

      Thank you for sharing such an encouraging testimony.

      God bless you ~


  6. Posted by Vivian Etherington

    I love this post! I love the part where you said out loud “I will worship Jesus–no matter what!” and then went to your knees to worship, right there in your kitchen! Beautiful and powerful! Kim, I love your writing and am so thankful: it spurs me on to love Jesus and others more!
    Hebrews 12:1-2 “…let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith..”
    Love you!


    • Posted by Kimberly Wagner

      Thank you so much for that sweet encouragement, Viv, you are always so kind!

      Love you, friend ~


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